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Monday, February 05, 2007
God,
through this hard time, i pray You'll be near.
Whenever i cry myself to sleep, I pray You'll dry those tears.
I pray You'll give me the capacity to forgive, for i know i'm sinning against You when i feel hatred and bitterness.
I pray You'll give me the courage to trust again, for i find that i've lost that.
I pray You'll give me the strength to go on, for its so hard..
I pray You'll grant my dear friends patience, for i know i piss them off by being so sad and mopey all the time..
I pray that through this journey of forgiveness and pain, of tears and recovery,
that I will learn to praise You. and not grieve Your spirit.
In Jesus' name,
amen
its been hard.
i don't know how much longer i can take.
haven't been sleeping well, or enjoying my life.
sigh.
the amount of hurt that i'm feeling..
is beyond words.
What do you say when u find out you've been 2 timed?
and all these while, u've been telling yourself,
"he aint that bad larh...maybe its the long dist.."
but no...the truth was, that he was with someone else.
already.
sigh.
i chose to overlook that part.
but suddenly,
now...
its all crashing down. on me.
and i'm scared.
i'm scared i'll never be okay again.
I'm scared that i'm becoming a cynic.
Sigh.
I just need to constantly remind myself that God is in control..
yeah, and perfect love drives away fear.
on a happier note
i've received 2 preddy pretty shirts frm zara!!
and an uber cool golden jacket frm Pull and Bear!!
thanks jinC :D loves..
and ohhh...
yesterday...was at taka...and i bought a 375bucks COACH bag!!
for CNY!! [excuses, excuses huh]
haha!
its damn theraputic larrrr!
conk feels slightly happier now.
posted by sharonk on
11:35 AM