Monday, June 26, 2006
spent close to 3 hrs today
just talking to my heavenly daddy
(:
it's truly refreshing to just cut urself from the outside world,
switching off the hp, putting msn on away..
just in my room in prayer.
and God is faithful.
i wrote 10 over pages in my notebook...
just revelations that God has impressed on my heart
about my life.
main thing was on faith.
and the need to change my view on my faith.
i had many misconceptions on faith in God.
God showed me 2 pages FULL of my misconceptions!
trust me, sometimes when u seek God, and He shows u things...
it's scary? its like, sometimes i grapple with God and say
"i wld rather not know..." kinda thing??
well,
God showed me that
1) I have not expected my faith to make a difference in my relationships,
instead, i expected my faith to make my relationship easy.
2)I haven't wanted my faith to make me face the issues in my life,
i have wanted my faith to help me avoid these issues.
3)I didn't ask my faith in God to give me the courage to do what is needed to be done,
I asked my faith to do what needed to be done for me.
4)I wasn't asking for courage to do the difficult,
i asked instead, for the removal of the difficult.
5)I didn't want my faith to make a difference,
I wanted it to remove the need for a faith that made a difference.
6)I wanted faith to change everything, but me.
7)I wanted faith to change my circumstances quickly, without discomfort or pain.
and many more..
but God is good. He will never leave u in the lurch.
Faith in God
1)is not the way AROUND pain, it is the way through pain
2)doesnt give u the solution, it forces u to find it
3)doesnt teach u at the moment, it teaches in retrospect.
4)doesnt provide a net to fall into when your fingers are abt to give way as u hang over the cliff,
but it gives ur fingers the strength to hang on just a little longer.
Faith makes itself known in life's difficulties by making the difficult more difficult.
Faith doesn't comfort, it discomforts by forcing us to recognise its unwelcome prescence.
Faith is the ANNOYING recognition that demands us to take our relationship with God seriously, when taking it seriously doesnt seem to matter.
It is like, God shouting to me, in my problems
"faith in ME is impt, u figure out how!"
It is the persistent, nagging prescence that feels like an absence.
Quit waiting for God to intervene, I must make my faith in God intervene in the midst of my circumstance.
"Is this what they mean by 'leap of faith'?
When your feet can't touch the bottom
and land seems so far away?
I want to reach out to you,
despite my present fears
Draw me closer to you now, God
and wash away my tears...
I will rest in You
Your love is all I know
But in the storms of life Lord,
please hold my hand and don't let go."
posted by sharonk on
6:49 PM
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